I have watched Nanay falling in and out of sickness since she reached her 50+ years of age. It seems so macabre to suggest that her body translated infirmity as she aged. The once strong woman who took care of 7 kids has been frail for the last 15 years.
I spoke to her yesterday concerning her health since I learned that her blood pressure shot up to 180/90 and pulse rate of only 47 on Wednesday. Lynn rushed her to the hospital complaining of lightheadedness and physical weakness. She underwent a series of lab tests including 2D-echocardiography, c and other tests to diagnose autoimmune illnesses. She was sent home that day too showing signs of improvement, but with a new set of prescription drugs.
Emergency care was inevitable late evening of Thursday when her blood pressure registered to its most dangerous level of 220/100 with pulse rate of 37. She had to be monitored 4 hours straight until her condition stabilized. It took 2 doses of catapres 6 hours later to bring her blood pressure down. She was released from the satellite clinic a few hours later.
We reckon that stress and exhaustion from taking care of my father from his episode of stroke last February can be imminent, but not to this extent. Sleeping would have been palliative for her but she's also deprived of it.
While she's out of danger now, I think in my carnal mind, based on her medical history that it would just be a matter of time when sickness would attack again. I'm so sick of it!
When sickness invades the life of your loved one, it completely drains you--emotionally, financially, mentally, physically. It feeds on sadness; robs you of your joy ultimately stressing you out while it slowly depletes your savings.
The frailty of the human body can cause one to think of a god who can heal and save. I'm no exception. I can cause a tide of prayer requests to Christian friends and ministries until I'm emotionally and spiritually exhausted. Sometimes I find myself spiritually paralyzed especially when the one sick is someone I dearly love. It's difficult to pray when someone is sick, but I know in my very soul that it's the enemy's way to keep my prayer unanswered so I have to keep on pushing.
I see sickness as a gun pointed at a person's head leaving him or her almost instantly petitioning God to manifest His power right at that very moment. My friend Blenda is right when she said that "God is not moved when we have a need, He is moved by our faith."
Hebrews 11:6, "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
I'm believing God will release her from the bondage of sickness so she can live life as she should--healthy, happy and pain free.
Special thanks to my friends and prayer warriors Blenda and Mavic from Manila and Thess R from Australia who helped me pray for my mother.
All is well now. Thank you, Lord Jesus.
While she's out of danger now, I think in my carnal mind, based on her medical history that it would just be a matter of time when sickness would attack again. I'm so sick of it!
When sickness invades the life of your loved one, it completely drains you--emotionally, financially, mentally, physically. It feeds on sadness; robs you of your joy ultimately stressing you out while it slowly depletes your savings.
The frailty of the human body can cause one to think of a god who can heal and save. I'm no exception. I can cause a tide of prayer requests to Christian friends and ministries until I'm emotionally and spiritually exhausted. Sometimes I find myself spiritually paralyzed especially when the one sick is someone I dearly love. It's difficult to pray when someone is sick, but I know in my very soul that it's the enemy's way to keep my prayer unanswered so I have to keep on pushing.
I see sickness as a gun pointed at a person's head leaving him or her almost instantly petitioning God to manifest His power right at that very moment. My friend Blenda is right when she said that "God is not moved when we have a need, He is moved by our faith."
Hebrews 11:6, "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him."
I'm believing God will release her from the bondage of sickness so she can live life as she should--healthy, happy and pain free.
Special thanks to my friends and prayer warriors Blenda and Mavic from Manila and Thess R from Australia who helped me pray for my mother.
All is well now. Thank you, Lord Jesus.
i feel your apprehension sis. i am hoping that nanay will eventually feel better. back when we were in our 20's, illnesses didn't seem so much of a threat then. but now it stares us in the face, not only because of the state ourselves are in but our loved ones as well. i know how the distance between bahrain and ph makes it all the more frustrating for you. i am not a religious person, but i very much agree about keeping faith in God not only in the hour of need, but at all times. be strong, bel....
ReplyDeletebtw sis, i'm loving your new layout. love that little fish box on your side bar. so cool..
ReplyDeleteyou're right about the distance, shaz. it's the painful truth. sigh:-/ but the thing is, i have to be where my husband is. it's part and parcel of having one's own family. nanay understands that full well.
ReplyDeletethis is one post i didn't care to edit. bara-bara lang. there's a lot of emotions going on while writing this post. i guess i was more angry than thankful really. i recognize my own humanity so the battle is great.
anyway, the fish box is ali's suggestion. she said if she was to read my blog, she wanted something cool to start with. taray no?
thanks for visiting:-)